day 71

new years is all about being fresh, being revived. its the one day a year where it all starts over. I love it.

day 80

Some things seem so complicated, but in all reality they are simple. You can try to complicate things and have all these details, but when it comes down to it...the details get in the way. The details don't really matter. Today is all about the big picture, because sometimes what matters is simplicity.

day 79

This has to be my favorite song. So good.

day 78

I have this huge fear of being happy and then wondering if something better is out there. I know that I am supposed to believe that this is a normal thing, but I just really think that when real happiness comes my way I will mess it up because I am too preoccupied thinking that there might just be more for me. Maybe we all need to learn what real happiness is, so that we can preserve it when it is right.

day 77

you're cute because you can handle compliments.

unlike me.

day 76

No matter what, Its good to be alive. Getting up in the morning never makes my day, but being able to wake up and see the new day always does. Who cares about the rest. The ability to see it through another day makes it all worth something.

day 75

You are not a good friend. You don't know what that means. But its okay, because you don't have to anymore. I can survive without you, and even if I wanted to talk to you, I'm not sure that the rest of me would allow it. There was a time when I thought we would never be separated, but it has happened. There was a time when I thought that even though fights, we could get back to ourselves; I was wrong. So this is it. I doubt that there is any turning back now, you've done too much, and I'm losing interest and hope. So thank you for the time we spent together, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I hate to say it, but you know what you've done. Its irreversible and unchangeable. But thats fine, because I've lost it. I've lost what made me think of you as a friend. You don't get to have that part of me anymore. All I want to do is forgive you, so that I can forget you.

The last day of scandal.

day 74

I know this is strange, I do. One thing that I love is bruises. Its not like I enjoy pain, or seeing someone else suffer, but I love them. bruises are like little scars that hurt for a bit and then go away, never to be seen again. Bruises are reminders and proof of the past. They are so real, and so in your face. Bruises can't apologize because there is nothing to be sorry for.

LISTEN TO THIS.

Jeans are scandalous.

Jeans

I love jeans. So I want to dedicate three days to jeans, there are so many ways to look at them.

"I decree today that life is simply taking and not giving"

- The Smiths

oh my god, kate moss. you champ.

day 73

I don't think that it is enough. Actually, it obviously wasn't enough. But its okay, because although love cannot heal all, time can.

day 72

This is really weird, but, when I say "twinsies" to someone I mean it in a good way. This is weird because twins really freak me out sometimes. No offense, not all twins. But there are really creepy, hand-holding-bff twins out there. So to all of those twins, please stop, its freaking me out.

day 71

I'm honestly afraid to sleep. You shot me in the head.

day 70

Today, I love myself.

day 69

this is so cool.

"Only the shallow know themselves."

-Oscar Wilde

day 68

Everyone, at one time or another we have to make tough decisions. Whether that choice is something we will later regret, it must be made nonetheless. Whatever choice is made, we have to live with the consequences. There is no other option, there is no rewind button. Choices can not be un-made. The situations we put ourselves in are a result of the previous choices we have made, and the blame can only be put in one place. I can't blame anyone for the decisions I have made, because no matter how much someone else may have influenced my actions, ultimately the choices I make are mine, and mine alone. I choose to seek out the actions that are fair, I choose to live freely. I refuse to be coerced by anyone into anything, and thus, I am free. I won't allow myself to be pushed down by anyone; not anymore. I am free. This is me making a promise to myself that I will never feel this way again, because like I said... I am free.

day 67

The person I am today is someone I am okay with. Maybe not thrilled all the time, but I am happy. I am worth something, and I can make people feel things. The person I am today will not be the person I am tomorrow, nor am I the person I was yesterday. I am always changing, growing, learning. If only it were that simple.

day 66