day 51

When we really want something, we are told that we have to work for it. You know, to "never give up" and to "reach for the stars". If we follow this plan of hard work and perseverance we are supposed to get what we want. Or at least that is what Disney movies have taught me. Either that is a lie, or I am going to be in my grave before I get what I want.

But the truth is that I feel like I am working for what I want, but maybe, just maybe, I'm not working hard enough. I wish that I was fearless and flawless and walked in 6 inch heels all over anyone who has ever crossed me. If that was me, I wouldn't be me. I guess I just have to wait for the right person to come around to want to work for me, and not the other way around. Not that I should sit around and wait for my prince charming to find my missing shoe and come looking for me. It's more like, My prince charming will lose his shoe at the same party that I lose my shoe at and we will eventually find each other and have warm feet once more. Equality is what really matters, because as soon as you feel like things aren't 50/50, nothing feels right.